The truth about me
Guo Feng is not patient and he is not kind.
Guo Feng does envy, does boast and is proud.
Guo Feng is rude (at times), self-seeking, is easily angered and he keeps record of wrongs.
Guo Feng does delight in evil (at times) but does not always rejoices with the truth.
Guo Feng does not always protects/trusts/hopes/perseveres.
BUT...Guo Feng knows Jesus and Jesus is all of that he isn't.
With Jesus, Guo Feng can change all that.
Monday, January 19, 2009
-6:21 PM
Ecclesiastes 3:1-11
A Time for Everything
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What does the worker gain from his toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.Yes, I kinda felt left out but yet I know I am not ready for it.
I must come to realise that it is not a race between me and my peers, but a battle with the evil one for the souls of men.
I feel tired, because the efforts in the past few months was put in due to a desire to climb higher and fruits doesn't seem to come. My answer to You now is "I GIVE UP!", I am giving up this desire to rise up and it doesn't to matter anymore whether I get to have a chance to lead. I want to have this renewed desire to serve and not caring whether there's fruits or not.
I am open to You, please come in.
I am nothing without You.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
-2:48 AM
Proverbs 14:30
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones.
Friday, January 9, 2009
-1:05 AM
我不能在当温室里的小花了！
-12:50 AM
I am starting to realise that you guys mean so much to me.
Your lives are at stake, but yet I can't seem to do anything about it.
I feel sad no being able to be the insider, the one to assist you in this race.
I don't wish to be the outsider that sees what's going on and not being able to do anything.
I see so much promise in the your eyes, He sees much more than that.
Father, can You please turn their lives around...please?
Everything is still in Your hands, I am sure of it.
Guide me somehow, so that I can be of help.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
-11:41 PM
I want to live like there's no tomorrow...to know that You are coming again.
I want to dance like no one's around
...to not care about what others think, to live for the audience of one
I want to sing like nobody's listening
...to praise and be thankful even if situations seem bleak
Before I lay my body down
...to surrender my all to You
I want to give like I have plenty
...to know that Your grace is more than enough for me to go on
I want to love like I'm not afraid
...to forget the hurts by man, to keep no records of wrongs
I want to be the man I was meant to be
...to fulfill the potential You've given
I want to be the way I was made
...to live according to how You planned it
Thursday, January 1, 2009
-11:22 PM
Your testings reveals the ugliness, the most disgusting side of me...
Yet You continue to turn up the heat, this is Your way of saying, "Not yet my child..."
I want to give it all up, into Your hands, because I know I cannot face all these alone.
I cannot look at the world and forget about You.
I want to seek Your approval in all things I do, because it's all because of You that I started this race and to run this race in Your timing, not mine.
I want to understand You and not let my feelings/emotions take charge.
"I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me, but in You."
- You by Switchfoot
-11:02 PM
Giving it all up.pride.
dreams.
goals.
expectations.
will.
